I feel like typing everything out in lightning speed now but I can't cause my fingers feel so heavy I wondered how I can log in so quickly.
This might be one of those 'impulsive posts' that you, or rather, I, might consider deleting and forgetting all about it one day.
Still.

I feel like being so sad so sad so sad now for everything that changed so quickly but in no time, you seemed to have changed back and as if nothing ever happened.
To you, that is.

For me, I am very grateful and happy for all the changes you have brought to me.
Did you know why at the end of last year The Form Teachers praised me and were so happy about my sudden improvement despite my horrible terrible vegetable (Ya till now I still act cute?!) progress in the first-half of the year?
You would probably say something like, (Okay wait no I cannot write here or else you will all know who am I referring to)

I wonder if this is called forgetting or letting it go or all those terms that people who broke up uses.
I wonder if you will still think of all the happenings that were so special to me at that time.

I don't know if there will be ever a time in the future when we will sit together and laugh and talk and basically just reminisce all the times with light hearts.

I wonder if it was all just an infatuation or something we mistook for the L word.

I know you all might be thinking, WHAT ARE DOING CHERLYN STOP EXAGGERATING
But I can promise you I am not.

If you don't believe me then you might be one of those who still wonder why the love songs are so exaggerating. Go read Low Kay Hwa's To Forget Me.

I now wonder why I can go on with my life as though nothing ever happened.

Maybe its because it never even started.
"The Official Stuff."

I would never have wanted it to start anyway.
I rather keep things simple and still be very happy.

No more 'if's for me in the future anyway.
Because what happened will never happen again anyway.
Probably.

Most likely.

I guess so.

Don't prove me wrong.

They say, No pain no gain.

I gained.
But there's not much pain for me.

Parasite is me.